My mind thinks about food all day.

I wake up and think “ok what are we eating today? Let’s lower the calories.” Sometimes I fail and sometimes I do well.

According to my calculations I ate around 548 calories today which is just the right amount. So now we need to go lower.

I think about food all day. It’s legit stressful and it gets tiring. “How am I gonna get out of dinner tonight?” I ask myself. “Are we gonna skip lunch or breakfast!?”

And when I do eat my three meals a day I’m mad at myself which causes me to just eat other stuff because I already technically “failed.” Life sucks and so does our mind.

I wish I can go to sleep without reviewing my food of that day and without telling myself that tomorrow I will eat less, tomorrow I will do better. If I do eat those three meals a day then I feel like a failure EVEN THO ITS NORMAL!!

And then my mind bombards me of how sucky i am and now I’m even more sucky because I couldn’t even have some self control. It’s exhausting.

𝔽𝑜𝑜ᗪ 𝕀ᔕ 𝐚ᒪŴ𝐚Ⓨᔕ 𝑜ภ мⓎ м𝕀ภᗪ, ᵇ𝓊丅 ภ𝑜丅 丅ⓗｅ g𝑜𝑜ᗪ Ҝ𝕀ภᗪ.

-T.P